The porter’s mop hissed as it glided across the linoleum floor and slapped against the cellblock’s moldings. His
muscles flexed with each push and pull working in concert with the continuous swish, swish of the mop. The methodic
rhythm interrupted the early Sunday morning quiet. A prisoner rolled over on his bunk. A toilet flushed. Officer
Sherwood took a routine count. Her rubber-soled shoes squeaked as she made her way down the gallery.
When Sherwood approached cell 103, the door swung open. Suddenly, a hand thrust out, grabbed her arm and
yanked her through the opening. The officer’s count board crashed to the floor. The cell door banged shut. A
thundering noise rumbled through the second tier of the prison block.
“He’s got her.” The porter yelled. “Baker’s got Officer Sherwood in his cell.”
Jill Sherwood raised her head and stared into the angry eyes of a prisoner, Paul Baker, a violent, unsympathetic
Baker twisted Jill’s right arm as he pointed a piece of pipe at her face and laughed. He used her arm as a catapult to
throw her onto his bunk.
Sprawled across the cement bed, Jill watched, paralyzed, as Baker piled the mattress against the door and quickly
tied one end of a sheet to the door handle. The other end had already been secured to what was left of the radiator,
preventing the door from swinging open onto the cellblock’s walkway. Baker had created a formidable barricade with
his meager cell furnishings.
Baker turned to Jill. "You don't move unless I tell you. And you don't talk to nobody but me or I’ll kill you.” Spit flew
from his mouth.
Jill pulled herself up and rested her back against the soiled gray cell wall, clammy from the summer's humidity. Her
mouth formed silent words when Baker gripped a fistful of her hair, and pulled her head toward him. "Did ya hear
me?” He screamed. He tugged her hair again. “Answer me when I talk to you."
Jill winced from the pain and nodded. An involuntary gasp forced its way from deep inside her.
Baker let go of her hair. He threw his head back and laughed. But his laughter abruptly stopped as he jabbed Jill’s ribs
with the pipe he'd been holding. “This ain't personal,” he said. “It's not between you and me. It's me and them
mothafuckas.” He tilted his head toward the door. “Including your pig husband, the GREAT Lieutenant Billy Sherwood."
Jill crumbled from the blow. But fortunately the pipe didn’t break her skin. The homemade weapon appeared to be
from the cell radiator, pieces of which were strewn across the floor. What radiator could withstand Baker’s rage?
He held Officer Jill Sherwood captive in his cell.
“Call the captain for help,” Officer Williams, ordered as he banged at the cell door. "Baker, let her go, man,” he yelled.
“Don't be stupid." Williams' body thumped against the cell door in an attempt to dislodge it.
Jill glimpsed the outline of the officer’s head as it jerked back and forth across the narrow door window. What took
him so long to get here?
Jill heard the other block officer, Clarence Thompson, shout, "Forget it, Williams. It's too late. Baker's got the door tied
The image of Thompson trying to wrench Williams away from the cell door formed in Jill’s mind. She wanted to shout,
Don't leave me, Williams! Yet Baker’s threat hung in the air. He would kill her if she disobeyed his order not to talk to
anyone but him.
Baker’s lips curled back, exposing his teeth like a mad dog. Her rushed the door screaming, "I ain't lettin her go. And I
ain't talkin to nobody but The Man. So get The Man here, Williams."
The Man. Baker meant the prison’s hostage negotiator. Jill had been an officer less than six months and now she
found herself the victim in the second hostage situation during that short time. In the first one, Baker also took a
woman officer hostage. He played out the scenario then just long enough to make everyone feel anxious about his
threats. Baker had little to lose. He’d been sentenced to life for murder.
Jill’s entire body trembled. Would she die at Baker’s hand? Jill knew Baker should’ve been transferred from the prison
after the first time. She shouldn’t be facing him like that. How many times would prison officials let Baker have his
way? What chance did she have to get out of his cell alive?
Jill slid her body across Baker’s bunk as far from him as possible. She held her breath so she didn’t react to the pain in
her ribs where the pipe hit. When she reached the corner, she laid her head back and watched Baker.
Without warning Jill’s breathing quickened. She pressed her hand across her mouth to quiet the noise so she didn’t
incite Baker. She couldn’t stop the sounds and her body gave into convulsive motions.
Jill consoled herself with thoughts about the last time Baker took a hostage. He let the officer go within an hour and
walked calmly from his cell. It was a terrifying hour, but nobody got hurt. Maybe her situation would turn out the
same. She could survive an hour.
Jill bolted upright. The impact of the pipe banging against the cinder block wall vibrated through her body like
thousands of needle pricks. Baker didn't have a weapon the last time.
Baker paced the cell—ten deliberate steps in each direction. Each time he reached Jill he slammed the pipe against the
wall just above her head. Each time the piercing sound pulsated through her body. Each time it drove her deeper into
a human ball rolled into the farthest corner of the bunk. Vomit rose into her throat. She swallowed it back. Jill clasped
her hands behind her head and pulled forward with all the strength she had. But it didn’t shut out the sound of the
pipe slamming into the wall. If she buried her face between her thighs, and pressed them against her chest, and
pressed her upper arms against her ears, would the tormenting sound of the pipe go away?
Jill’s eyes rested on her stomach hidden in the shadow of her fear. Would she ever see the baby she carried? Her
first. She hadn’t told her boss about her pregnancy. She would have been let go. She had planned to break the news
when she started to show, maybe in the third or fourth month. By then she could prove her worth and maybe not
Though tucked deep into herself, she couldn't block out that sound or pretend Baker had disappeared. What if he
missed the wall? Think of positive things. You'll get through. Don't do anything to provoke him. What did they say in
training? If you make it through the first twenty minutes, you probably won't be killed.
How long had she been in his cell?
Baker walked faster.
All sorts of thoughts rushed through Jill’s mind. She knew when she took job at this max the inmates had murdered
and raped more than one woman. Why hadn’t she listened to her husband and asked for a transfer from this joint?
Jill lifted her head just enough to see Baker raise the pipe over her. It was too late to think about what she should’ve
done. Like a turtle, she retracted her head and shuddered. She just didn’t want Baker to kill her. She wanted to see
She could hardly breathe. The cell was too damn hot. But Baker didn’t deserve even those meager surroundings. If
the bunk weren’t cement, he'd tear it up like he did the radiator and use the pieces for weapons.
Williams and Thompson were still at the cell door. They talked in low voices. Williams ordered Thompson to call the
shift commander to see what kept the negotiator. But Thompson did't leave. Instead he whined, "We're in big fuckin
trouble. She's a rookie and the only woman on duty in this block.”
Jill could see Thompson walking back and forth. He peered in the window and said, “I'm supposeta make the eight a.
m. round, Williams, not her.”
The footsteps stopped. Jill wanted to call out, You got that right, Thompson. You’re always supposed to be doing
something that I end up doing.
“When Baker grabbed her, she was doing my job, man,” Thompson confessed. “What do ya think the warden's gonna
say 'bout that?"
Both stopped talking as the pipe’s thwack resonated. Jill flinched at the sudden interruption fearing the worst. She
could almost see the two officers facing each other, heads tilted toward the cell door to hear what might come next.
When nothing happened, Williams continued, “That's not the only thing that's gonna piss the warden off, Thompson.
Nobody noticed that Baker's cell door was unlocked.”
Jill spied the door’s lock. Not even me.
Williams and Thompson were silent for a few moments. Then Williams talked again. “But that's not the problem right
now. It's saving her,” He scolded Thompson. “So hustle your ass and call the shift commander. I'll stay here until help
The cellblock became unusually quiet. Water dripped from the faucet and hit the cell’s sink in a perfect cadence—drip,
drip, drip. Then the prisoners started yelling. Their voices sounded like a musical round as they shouted one after the
"The Man's here, Baker."
"Baker, The Man's here."
"Tellum whatcha want─to get outta this mothafuckin hole."
“Hey Baker, take me with ya.”
Jill dared to glance at the narrow cell door window directly across from her. Tony Dodge's blank face filled the window
as he stared into the cell. The Man. The negotiator. His eyes darted from one corner of the room to another. He
appeared to be sizing up the situation. Although he was one of the prison psychiatrists, Jill had little respect for him.
In the past he seemed to spend more of his time boasting about the books he’d published than with the prisoners on
“It took you long enough to get here,” Williams chides.
But Dodge wasn’t the type to throw on last night’s clothes even in an emergency—he must be ready, look good, in
case he would be interviewed for the evening news.
Nevertheless, his arrival calmed Jill. She reminded herself he did negotiate the three previous hostage situations,
including the last one with Baker. All of them were brought to successful conclusions though a couple of officers
suffered minor injuries.
The last time Baker took a hostage it was also on a Sunday when there were fewer officers and administrators on
duty. For the past several months, he'd been quiet. No trouble. His compliant behavior convinced everyone he'd
changed and just wanted to do his time long enough for the officers to become lax, too trusting, and stupid.
Jill also reminded herself that if she got out of the cell alive, she’d never do Thompson’s or anyone else’s job. She’d
never cover their asses again.
The cellblock quieted once more and Baker stopped pacing. Yet the sound of the pipe slamming against the wall still
echoed in Jill’s aching head.
The prisoners on the block stopped their taunting, no doubt to eavesdrop on Dodge. He spoke to someone out of Jill’s
range of vision. "Baker appears more agitated this time,” he reported. “And unlike the last time, he has a weapon."
Jill imagined Dodge pushing his fingers through his raven hair as he talked. What did he mean Baker was more
agitated? Her body stiffened from sitting on the hard, damp cement surface. Yet her spine felt as though it was
massaged by a hundred fingers made of ice. Agitated, agitated, agitated, repeated over and over in her head. Her
heart beat so hard she saw her chest move with its rhythm.
Suddenly Jill remembered something else from training. Never use the same negotiator if the hostage taker was the
same or if they knew each other, because the hostage taker would know what to expect. Baker had the advantage.
The sound from Jill’s hammering heart pounded its way into her head and roared into her ears. She clutched her
knees to her chest, tighter than she had earlier. She lowered her head onto her knees and rocked. This can't be
The other prisoners on the block resumed their taunts.
"Hey Dodge. Think you're gonna save that honky's ass?"
"Baker get us all outta here with you."
"Big man Dodge. Let's see ya open the door."
Several inmates laughed.
The sound of their voices reverberated down the block into a deafening explosion of words making it difficult for
Dodge to talk with Baker. Usually the prisoners were removed from the area during a hostage incident. But not this
time. There was no way that group of killers and rapists could be herded from their cells without a lot of problems.
Maybe even a riot. The time was right for a riot. They're all hyped up.
Opportunity. That's what it was all about. Prisoners are opportunists. They look for the right time to make their
moves. Was Baker waiting for Jill to walk by his cell that morning? He had had a fight with her husband earlier that
week when he searched Baker’s area. Was she the pay back?
Jill chastised herself for taking Thompson’s count for him. He’d been lazy from the start. As a fish—a new officer, and a
woman trying to prove she could do the job. Jill did more than her share and Baker knew she’d take the count. She
was that transparent. Yet what would any of it matter if Baker killed her?
Jill lifted her head heavy with sweat. She breathed in the thick summer air pushing through the window hinged slightly
open. Baker paced the cell again, taking long measured strides. With each step he twisted the pipe in his hand. When
he reached the door window he shouted at Dodge, "Hey man, whatcha got for me this time? A ride out of this joint to
the Feds like I asked the last time? You can do it. You're my friend ain’t ya, Dodge?"
Baker slammed the pipe against the cell door.
Jill pressed her fingers into her temples and rubbed. She sneaked a look at her watch. The second hour had begun.
She was no closer to getting out.
Jill noticed her wet clothes. Or perhaps just her pants. When had it happened? Did Baker know about her wet pants?
Baker came at Jill, slamming the pipe into the palm of his hand. He was right. They should’ve transferred him after the
last hostage thing like they were supposed to.
Funny, Jill hadn't noticed before that moment that Baker had no shirt on. A patchwork of scars covered his chest. Most
of them looked like knife wounds. The milky scar tissue glowed in what little sunlight squeezed between the bars
covering the gritty outside cell window.
Baker leaned his glistening, muscular body toward Jill. He pointed the pipe at her head. Jill recoiled. She thought he
would hit her for sure. Instead he asked in a deep controlled voice, "Whatcha rubbin’ your head for? Want some
Jill nodded. Her mouth formed the soundless word yes.
Baker walked to the cell door window and negotiated with Dodge. They agreed that Baker would give up some
radiator parts in exchange for aspirins. It seemed to make no difference that the aspirins would go to Jill. Dodge
unlocked the cell door slot where officers usually delivered Baker's food tray. The grating sound of the metal door slot
opening echoed in the now silent block. Jill placed her hands over her ears to cutoff the jarring noise which had never
bothered her before.
The officers would give no food to Baker through the slot today. Or Jill’s baby.
Dodge and Baker exchanged items.
After the exchange Dodge watched Baker give the aspirins and a paper cup filled with water to Jill. When she finished,
Baker took the cup and nabbed a few squares of toilet paper from a roll sitting on the floor next to the stainless steel
toilet. He turned back to Jill and wiped the tears from her face. "I really don't want to hurt you or your baby,” he
Jill placed her hands on her stomach.
“It's them.” He gestured with his thumb at the door. “But ya gotta be my bargaining chip for a little while longer. OK?"
Jill closed her eyes and nodded. Still she could see Baker’s wicked glare.
When Baker wiped away her tears again, Jill opened her eyes. She studied Baker. She believed the deep creases she’
d seen earlier in his face had melted away. Could Baker really care about what happened to her and her baby? Or
could it be just another game so Baker got what he wanted?
Jill didn’t care. She only wanted to live.
The baby. How did Baker know about the baby? The inmates seemed to know more than anyone else in the prison.
Jill rested her hands on her slightly swollen belly. Her eyes followed Baker as he tread across the cell. His scars
gleamed. Perhaps what had been said about Baker wasn't true. Perhaps he'd been the victim. He was only twenty
years old, a kid himself, and only a few years younger than Jill. Yet his face often looked like an old man's, especially
when he became anxious. His rage nurtured the hate that flooded his mind and etched the meanness on his face. Jill
shared a cell with that Baker.
Dodge's face, still framed by the cell door window, appeared less tense, almost
victorious, since Baker gave him the radiator parts. Hope filled Jill. Maybe it would end peacefully. She shook her head.
Baker seemed determined. When Baker reached Dodge he stared him down with eyes filled with contempt and
superiority. Dodge shuffled his feet and shifted his head away from the window. He no longer looked pleased with
Jill had to force her eyes to remain open. She couldn’t let the exhaustion overcome her. She had to stay alert. But it
was so damn hot. How did the prisoners stand that heat all day? No wonder they walked around in their undershorts.
No wonder their tempers flared. The heat can do that to anyone. Jill had to ignore all that. She had to be vigilant.
A light breeze forced its way into the cell though the window which opened about six-inches allowing needed air to
flow inside. It didn’t pose a security problem—so the officers had been told. Jill scooted closer to the vent to gain full
benefit from the cool breeze. It helped settle her nausea.
Almost the entire prison came in view from the window, though its dirty coating distorted the scene. Jill imagined
what it would be like if she were a segregated prisoner like Baker. He no doubt spent endless hours staring through
the unforgiving bars. He had no identity, no other choices, nothing to do.
Jill halted her reverie when she heard Baker at the door, mumbling something to Dodge. She decided to ignore the
conversation and gazed at the identical two-story brick-buildings that surrounded a college-like quad. It all seemed
out of place. Her mind wandered back to her thoughts about being a prisoner. She’d keep a constant and envious vigil
over the animated prison compound: officers scurrying along the flower-lined sidewalk; general population inmates
going to work, chow hall or sick call; nurses heading to the segregation cell blocks to distribute medicine and listen to
prisoners complain; teachers rushing to get to classes on time; psychologists, carrying an armload of files, racing to
counseling sessions. As a prisoner, the only other world Jill would know came through the narrow window in the cell
door as she strained to see who walked the block.
Baker’s voice increased to a shout, which drew Jill’s attention. “You’re an asshole, Dodge,” he screamed. “I can’t let
you have this.” He waved the pipe above his head. “Unless you can give me a ride outta here, you understand?”
Any hope Jill had felt earlier had been erased. She decided her own imagination would be her only salvation. She
turned back to the window. Jill watched the continuous rounds of officers patrolling the yard. She heard the steady
chatter from their hand-held radios. Could the conversation be about her locked in Baker’s cell? She couldn’t make out
any words. Instead, Baker’s booming voice came at her like a challenge. “Where’s your big-shot husband now?”
Jill wondered too. She imagined him pacing the prison’s waiting room or harassing the warden for answers. Jill’s eyes
followed the twelve-foot electrified double chain link fence topped with razor ribbon as though she searched for her
husband. Instead she saw an officer in the gun tower across the quad. The stern-looking watchman kept an
automatic rifle at his fingertips. On normal days he waited to break up a yard fight or stopped an escaping prisoner
from scaling the fence. On normal days he raised binoculars to his eyes and surveyed the grounds. On normal days,
he often looked disappointed when he couldn’t fire off a round.
On normal days.
The leaves on the trees that bordered the prison shivered against a radiant, blue sky. Though a comforting vista the
officers’ tactical movements on the compound aroused thoughts of looming danger. Jill suddenly considered the
flowers along the sidewalks. They seemed silly, twisted and colorless to her at that moment. Did the tower officer
ever notice the flowers and question them?
Hour number three had come and gone. Baker paced like a caged circus lion. Cage. Cell. No difference. The walls
seemed to press in on Jill, crowding out all the air. Though prisoners called a cell their house, the only living things
that could be at home in them were the cockroaches and the occasional transient rat. Who could survive in such a
dungeon? Who could remain gentle, forgiving? The system made Baker an animal.
Baker left the door window. He talked to Jill as he walked back and forth, back and forth. "You know, the last time I
took a hostage I tried to get outta here for protection. The officers here like to play with me. Abuse me.”
He stopped and stared at Jill. His eyes accused her. “They mess with my time outta of my house and do things like trip
me so I fall.”
Baker stabbed the pipe into the air punctuating each phrase. “And sometimes they just beat me for kicks.” Stab, Stab.
He walked again, faster, faster. “But nobody hears what I’m say’n.” Stab. “I'm always the bad guy." Stab.
Baker suddenly stopped in the center of the cell and cocked his head like a dog. He listened to the other prisoners'
warnings. The lines in his face deepened with each alarming prediction forecasted by his block mates.
"Baker. The SWAT Team's here."
Baker’s eyes widened. He now looked like a wild animal caught in a trap as the quick footsteps of heavy boots
progressed down the gallery walk.
"They're comin’ to get ya, Baker."
Baker rubbed his head in a frenzied motion. Drool seeped from the corner of his mouth.
"Your ass is cooked this time, Baker. Game's up."
Baker bashed the pipe against the cell door. His hand quaked from the vibration. "Dodge!” he shouted. “I don't want
no cops in here. Just you. Keep them outta here, and I'll come out at noon."
Dodge didn’t answer.
"Dodge! D’ya hear me?"
What seemed like several minutes ticked before Dodge responded, "Okay, Baker,” he conceded. “You have twenty
minutes—'til noon. But after that, it's out of my hands. The SWAT Team will take over."
Baker turned toward Jill. The angry lines in his face diminished. Yet nothing had been promised him. Jill wanted to
believe it was a good sign. Maybe Baker had tired of the game. Or maybe he feared the SWAT Team would come in
and he'd get hurt or even killed. Maybe he thought the game had gone too far that time.
Suddenly Baker’s mouth formed an unbalanced smile. His eyes turned to ice. He moved like a robot as he covered the
cell door window with a blanket.
Jill couldn't see Tony Dodge anymore.
And no one could see her.
Baker broke his promise. They all broke their promises.
Jill rummaged through her training. If she made it beyond the first twenty minutes —I'll be all right, I’ll be all right, I’ll
be all right. The mantra kept rhythm with her increased heart beat.
Baker circled his large sweaty hands around Jill’s ankles. He pulled her so that her back flattened against the cement
bunk. He pressed the pipe against her chest using his left hand, while he ripped her slacks and panties off with his
Jill couldn’t breathe. You don't have to do this Baker.
I'm on your side.
I can help you.
I'm not one of them.
Though the words formed in Jill’s head, her pleas went soundless. Only gasps forced their way out as Baker's body
bumped heavily into her, smashing Jill into the hard bed.
Baker’s eyes never looked away from Jill.
Tears stung Jill’s cheeks as they flowed down to the bunk. She turned her head so she didn’t see Baker’s bloodthirsty
stare. Her tears formed small dark circles on the cement. She wondered if she’d lose her baby, her husband. She
wondered if Baker planned to kill her.
Baker’s heaviness pushed into Jill in one final moment of conquest. Then he lifted his body off hers. He put the pipe
down on the floor and pulled up his white prison issued under shorts. He walked to the cell door. He methodically
moved the mattress and untied the sheets. He opened the door and sauntered out of the cell onto the block at
State Police officers in impeccable blue fatigue-like uniforms surrounded Baker. They cuffed his hands behind him. An
officer stood to each side and each clenched one of Baker’s arms. A third officer stepped behind Baker as the three led
him away to the unacknowledged cheers of his block mates.
Jill prayed that it all had been a bad dream. But when she pulled herself up, the pain that shot down her back into her
groin told her otherwise. She leaned against the dank wall. Her thighs seemed glued together from the poison that
had spewed from Baker. She stared at her underpants and uniform slacks heaped on the floor. How could that tainted
pile have ever held any authority?
Jill was alone in the cell. No one—not Dodge, not Thompson, not Williams—peered through the open door. It's as
though Jill didn’t exist.
From the other end of the block, a male voice commanded, "Someone get the hostage and debrief her."
Jill snatched one of the sheets from the floor, wrapped it around her, and waited.
By: Tekla Dennison Miller